Hmmm, recently, just publish the post of the two songs, both of the songs are nice and it is suitable for easy listening. I particularly like the two songs, I think it is because somehow or rather it has been reflecting what I have been going through these three years. It is mainly on the side of my feelings. How I view every relationship, sometime it is not that I can't find the right partner, it might just be mainly every time it happen at the wrong place, time and feeling.
I always hear people say that whenever u listen to some songs, u will start to reflect things that you have been doing and feeling all these while, I believe that the lyrics of the two songs that I have posted is something that everyone will went through. It is not that WOW, all the things that I have write in this post mean that I am acting like an adult.
Nowadays, I have no idea why I am such a blur king. Is it because I have become older or my mind has been rejecting a lot of things??? Hmmm, this is difficult because I also do not know about myself, let alone my friends and family.
In this world, who know who they are personally, I cannot say that there are none, but sometime I am wondering, does people who are confident of themselves will think that they know everything about themselves?
I view things a lot lot different from most of my friends, family. I must admit this. Because I am just being who I am. These days, I have been thinking, should someone who know everything about himself and his friends especially the character, is it horrible?? If there is someone in this world who can attain this kind of wow stage. I really will want to know him.
Sometimes, it is just so sickening to be in the family when everything will fall upon u when u do not want. Where u just want to be free of most of the burden. In this world, not everything can be shared, especially feelings, I find that the bond in my family is getting really bad. I do not like to stay at home, people say that the home is still the nicest place. To me, what I like at home is only my bed and nothing else, maybe my mother, but the rest of the things are not sweet to me. it is just a whole damn shit of burden.
Thinking changes when u reach certain age. Maybe my changes is just still the same where everything is as it look like. How can you respect someone older when they do not even respect you??? When I am still young, I look forward to come home and stay with my mother at the age of 3 to 7. I misses someone who always dote on me, but now I do not know the whereabouts, has that person died or just do not want to contact me????
Now I have already reach another phase of life, things still does not look good to me, I have changed to a completely different person, from a person who like to talk about things that are being coped in the heart to my godmother, to someone who have been keeping things to himself where it has been a lock. He He He He He He He. Maybe not a lock ba, Maybe it just turn to somekind of iron heart haha.
Surprisingly, I can still cry, ya? but only when I am laughing till my stomach is very painful, other than that, I did not find any other thing that I can cry about. Life can be so twisting that someday I might think that everything that I have done in the past are all jokes. But one question, what is the time when you feel happy and what is the time when you feel sad???
Does someone really like my good? Does someone appreciates my good?? I am not sure, definitely there will be people saying "I DO", but how do you determine what is good and what is not good? It all differs from one perspective to another.
Talking about perspective, there is no doubt that everyone is different. If a person keep going/participating in the religious activities, but they do not change for the better, what for does the person just go for the activities, for the "face" of himself or his mother?
I may be someone whose mouth is not good, actions are not good, and a person who have not been joining any religious activities, but what differ is how the way you treat people.
Talking one big round, still comes back, people always determine the way on how u speak, how your action show yourself. This is why sometime it is best to keep quiet and endure. But if being quiet and edure the whole situation, what do you benefit? I remember someone told me before, "God favours those who are on the losing end where you always allow people to win, taking the losing blame all by yourself". Does that mean those people who keep benefiting will go to hell, haha and those who keep losing will go to heaven? Sometime people just like to slap their own face with the words they say. I always deem people with the horoscope of Taurus and immature people to be acting the way of slapping themselves.
SO BAD!!!!
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